Memories...

Hey everyone,
So I recently stumbled upon an old letter from my grandfather that was written back in 2005. He passed away about 3 years ago in 2007. He was living in the Philippines when he wrote that letter and when he passed. I was only eleven when he and my grandmother moved back there and in 2006 my family and I visited them for your 50th wedding anniversary. It just made me realize how much he wanted to see us, and how much he missed us, and how much I miss him. He was a very strong man, he was in his 80's when he passed and about a year later my grandmother followed. In his letter he wrote about how he just woke up and I was in his mind. When I first read that line it shocked me because I didn't know I was that special to him. He even addressed the letter to me and not to my family in general and I felt that he was able to connect with me. When I was young and he was living with us in Northern California, he would always wake up with the sun. He would wake me up and I would crawl out of bed, eyes still closed, half awake and half asleep trying to stand up and face the new day. He would always have pan de sal (filipino bread) with butter and a bit of cinnamon on top and coffee, always reading a newspaper looking out the window, sun shining on his face. He was a short little man but he was very strong and patient. (think of mr.miyagi from the karate kid) Even though I was still groggy and grumpy I would look at him and find peace within me. Reading that letter brought up feelings I haven't felt in a long time. I miss him. He inspired me to do what I am doing with my life and to always be strong and focused. He was able to deal with a lot of bad stuff in his life and he always seemed to do it with a smile. He would always put drama aside and he kept to himself. He is the light in my smile.
I just thought I would write something about him because of that letter. Have any of you felt the same with anyone in your life? Please leave a comment.

R.I.P Grandpa

It has been forever...

Hello everyone,

Well it has been forever since I have written a blog. When I first started this blog I wasn't really sure where exactly I wanted to go with this. So I've decided that I might as well use it as my journal, in a way. I will try not to get too personal on the subjects I will discuss, however it is my blog and I can do whatever I want with it. So if you don't want to hear anything of the sort then stop reading now and go on to the next blog.

First topic I would like to discuss is the new year. I have plans for this year. Not so much big plans, but plans. These plans are bigger then what had actually happened last year and I think that this is will be the start of achieving something towards my future and seeing result immediately. So my plans are to become an EMT and enroll in the PA program in my school, however that may be fully achieved next year. But I have finally decided that this year is the year I am going to quit my crappy job and I think that quitting is going to come sooner than later.

I work at the Picture People and although it is a really great place to work at, there is so much drama and crap going on in my studio! People are playing favorites and it is just so annoying! I'm tired of putting up with excuses and people whining and not doing their job, and I'm just tired of working hard and earning nothing! Minimum wage is not enough at all to be living out on your own, nor is it enough to pay for school (luckily I still live with my parents).

The EMT classes I will be taking will cost me about $700.00 and on top of that I have a car that I will be getting soon which I need to pay DMV fees for and get it registered and smogged. Remember where I work and right now hours aren't so great, so that means I'm going to have to ask my parents for help! I just feel so low when I ask them for help. I know that I'm a college student and I can't really complain about asking them for help because I'm still young and I'm trying to get to the point to where I won't have to ask them for money, but the whole idea of it still makes me feel bad.

Oh being young and having a job, it isn't always the best thing. Some people, like me, have a hard time saving their hard earned cash. I wouldn't have had a problem with saving my money if I had a reason to save it for. Sadly I didn't make my decision about school till recently, when the hours literally suck!

So that is just an update about what has been going on in my life. I still have to get my CPR card and attend an orientation for the classes, but I have a really good feeling about this. I just don't know so much about finding a job right after I finish the classes. Man I hate this economy! Obama needs to fix it now!

Well thats all for today, I'll try and update this as much as I can, have a good one everybody!